The Scariest Diagnosis

I don’t really know how to start this update, because the weight of this particular diagnosis is quite heavy and there’s no real way to be honest about it and yet not sound like I’m being extreme at the same time. I’m not being extreme. I never am when it comes to my health, because I don’t want to scare people…and because I’m not sure people would listen to the entirety of the truth even if I did try to tell it all, since in my experience people tend to tune my words out the moment they get overwhelmed…and I know the reality of the state of my body is overwhelming.

But there really isn’t any other way to share this update except to just say it as it is, so here goes…the scariest and most serious of all my current diagnosis is that my brain is dying.

Walker and I already knew that I had a lot of brain damage because I had a brain scan a couple months ago that showed that the majority of my brain was, quite literally, broken. We didn’t understand just how critical the situation was, because when I got the scan my doctor gave me the “nice” version of things…only I didn’t know that. She told me that I needed to start a specific treatment program as soon as possible to try and reverse some of the brain damage, and she told me that I would start feeling a lot better once I completed treatment. Everything sounded great except that the treatment was quite expensive and there was a big chance that my insurance wouldn’t cover it. So since we couldn’t currently afford it, we had to put it on the backburner for a few months until we got all of that worked out.

Well fast-forward to last month when I ended up at the doctor’s office after a near-death experience during the crazy firestorms and my doctor told me the real status of my brain damage. Not the previously mentioned “nice” version that they tell you when they don’t want to scare you, but the blunt truth that they tell you when they do want to scare you because your life is at serious risk.

She told me that my brain was failing, and as a result heart failure was beginning to follow. If I didn’t start treatment immediately, I could either die soon or end up brain dead, which to me would be even worse than dying. And get this, the parts of my brain that are the most damaged are the parts that control my body’s ability to heal itself…which explains a whole stinkin lot about my body and why it never seems to get healthy, but only more sick, over time. NO WONDER I seem to develop new diagnoses with every month or with every time I have a new health setback!

Well, my doctor knew I couldn’t afford the brain treatment yet, but told me that my life was more important than being able to pay her anytime soon for it. I could start right away and pay off my bills in the future whenever I could, with no deadlines or pressure…which is incredibly amazing. A huge gift from God. It blows my mind that I have a doctor to who genuinely cares about people as much as she does…who cares about me as much as she does. She told me once that she sees me as more of her daughter than her patient, and her love and care has brought so much healing to my heart and life over the last few years…I am so, so thankful.

There’s a lot more to say about my brain damage/failure, but this is enough for now because, as I shared earlier, I’m trying to share these updates in more bite-sized portions…which means I have to leave a lot of information unsaid and a lot of questions unanswered. For example, I’m sure some of you are wondering how I got all this brain damage in the first place!

I’m hoping to answer that question in my next post, but even if I end up unable to do so the answer is coming. I just need a lot of time. I’m sure you can imagine how difficult it is to put words together in a clear way when you have multiple chronic illnesses as well as loads & loads of brain damage…it takes a lot of effort and time, so I really appreciate your patience, prayers, and kindness as I continue to fight for healing as well as try to share some of my heart with the world.

Love you all,

Yours Truly,
~Cassia Dee


  1. There is nothing our Lord cannot do. He can strengthen us, uphold us, and heal us. I pray it is his sovereign plan to heal your body and to give you hope for your future here on Earth until he brings you home into his loving embrace. Lifting you up in prayer Cassia💕


    1. Oh my dear Cassia and my dear long time friend and “ second son” Walker,
      My heart is so crushed by this current health overview and diagnosis. We love you guys and will keep you you in our most fervent prayer. God can do exceedingly abundantly above all that we can even dare ask for or imagine according to the power ,or Christ that is most powerfully in us.

      Please Let us know how we can come alongside and help you both 💕
      We love you two and will keep you in our daily prayers. Keep us up-dated and please do not hesitate to ask for help!
      One wonderful day our Lord, who came into the world as a tender, sacrificial lamb will come back as a mighty destroyer of all that is harming your precious person now.
      We know in eternity with Christ every single pain, sorrow and all troubles and trials will be utterly done away with!
      Praise God for this most amazing Hope💕
      With our love and pledge to pray and help,
      Dan & Michele 💕


      1. Oh Michele, your caring, love-filled words bring tears to my eyes and comfort and much encouragement to my heart. Walker and I feel so loved by you both…thank you for always loving us, for being there for us now. I will write updates as often as I can. Love you so much, ~Cassia


  2. Oh my dear Cassia, tears come down as I read this news. My heart goes out to you and will be continuing to pray to our loving God. I have so many questions but I know that whatever you so bravely share is more than enough information. You are and always have been a fighter. My prayers for you and Walker as you continue to journey together.
    Love you


    1. You are such a wonderful friend…thank you for your sweet words and for being even more understanding than I every expected. I love you so much, and am so thankful for your prayers ❤


  3. Dear Cassia,
    My heart hurts for you! I am so sorry for the pain you have to bear, and the scary diagnosis you are facing. I am praying for God’s mercy and healing, and that He will fill you with supernatural peace and strength, so you won’t lose heart (2 Cor. 4!). ❤️❤️
    Thank you for sharing so I can know how to pray!


  4. Idk what to say…..where to start. My heart is aching now. I know with God all things are possible. … I’ve faded from his grace and mercy for awhile. But I shall not burden you with my sad past couple of years. You are the most Beautiful amazing angel God has placed on this earth for us to learn and be encouraged by! I miss you so stinkin much.. Reading your blog always gives me hope. Hope that my heart has the capacity to never give up and that God is still faithful even in my unfaithfulness. Thank God for that wonderful woman doctor of yours. Even through these dark days…you just exude true beauty, your heart is gem! Full of joy! And mind full of innocent wonder. You’re a graceful gorgeous blossom, a light on a hill! Continue on warrior! Love you so much.❤❤❤❤❤❤


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