Last November I shared a health update about the scariest diagnosis that I had ever recieved up until that point. In that post I talked briefly about my serious amounts of brain damage, as well as what that damage meant for my life if it weren’t reversed soon, and then…I fell off the face of the planet.
For nearly 12 months.
I know. That’s a long time. And it’s not like any of the updates, answers to questions, or anything else that I was supposed to write about way back then no longer apply to me now, or can just get dropped in exchange for newer updates and topics. Nope, allllll of the same things apply today…there’s just a lot more on top of it. Which, surprising to probably no one, makes coming back on the blog an even more daunting task.
BUT, difficult and daunting or not, I’m doing my best to come back! Well, truthfully, I’ve been doing my best since last November too, I just didn’t have anything to show for it until now. But sometimes that’s where God has us, and that’s okay. At least it is for me, because I’ve come out of the last 12 months with a deeper love for God and His ways, as well as a deeper acceptance of the places and the seasons that, for now, He has seen fit to keep me in.
I have some heavy updates to share, as well as moments of God’s grace and love and beauty. And, as was the plan before I disappeared, I will try to post them a little bit at a time in more bite-sized portions to make it easier both for writing purposes and for my lovely readers to digest and understand everything I share.
Lord willing I will be back soon, and I’d love prayer for that to be the case! ❤ I miss writing more dearly than anyone without a writers spirit could possibly understand, and I so long to have the physical and mental freedom to be able to satisfy that longing and drive within my soul. Chronic illness, brain damage, trauma, insomnia, and never-ending physical pain are so wearying and taxing and hard sometimes, and losing the ability to write for almost a whole year on top of all of that was nearly devestating at times! But our Eternal Creator is faithful. And worth it.
When we are weak, He is strong. And let’s face it, even for the majority of people I know who don’t have the physical, emotional, and mental weaknesses that come with severe chronic illnesses, we’re all weak at times…maybe even most of the time. But God is always perfectly strong. Perfectly with us. Completely and perfectly GOD…And I am so incredibly thankful for that.