Last month I got really sick. It was weird because it was one of those sicknesses that didn’t seem like it was going to be too horrendous at first, but every time it felt like it was about to go away it would morph into something worse. And worse. And worse. Until finally it did go away. But even after it went away I started feeling more and more sick in other ways. Chronic pain skyrocketed, inflammation skyrocketed, rashes skyrocketed. Nausea was debilitating some days. Infections started coming back, my digestive system fell apart, I was losing weight every week…dangerous and painful things like that.
It was discouraging for sure, but also a little bit scary. It’s scary to be experiencing so much healing and progress in your health only to spend the next month feeling like your body is reverting back to the way it was before. I didn’t voice my fears, choosing instead to be positive and to believe that this was just a phase and that it would eventually pass, but by Monday morning that resolve was starting to break, because whatever virus I did catch wrecked my immune system in a really big way.
Getting “bad” news from a doctor is never fun but its always reassuring to get some answers. And thankfully something that came with the answers was lots of medicine that my doctor is pretty confident will help my body, and particularly my immune system, get back on track. So it looks like next month is going to be “Medicine Madness March!” Hehe. I’m going to make the most of it and try to turn it into something enjoyable, but even if I don’t quite pull that off it’ll be dedicated to healing just the same. I’m just praying that it won’t be too overwhelming!
But you guys. The fact that I caught a virus that made even a healthy guy like Walker almost hospital-level sick and I didn’t end up in the emergency room is amazing. Borderline miraculous, even! Having a body that functions within the normal capacities of a human body is still so new to me. Most days I can hardly believe how much God has been healing it…it’s been so new and exciting and humbling and wonderful, and oh my goodness am I thankful.
I’m not out of the woods yet though, so prayers would be greatly appreciated. I definitely believe in the healing power of food, medicine, and the body, but I believe even more in those things when I know that God has first been asked to bless them. Lord willing by April I will be feeling loads better and I’ll be sure to write another update when that is the case ❤