Setting goals has always been really important to me. At the end of last year I knew that my goal for 2020 would be to blog regularly, or more specifically, to make blogging a habit again. I decided the best way to make that happen was to post every week until I achieved my goal, and I did it! I made it more than halfway through the year without missing a single week, and now I’ve decided that it’s time to make some changes here on the blog, and for a couple of reasons.
The first reason is that I got incredibly sick again three or four months ago (update hopefully coming soon) and for the foreseeable future I need to take the energy I have been putting into blogging and use it to focus on healing and taking better care of myself instead. I’ve been catching myself slipping back into my go-to dangerous pattern of being too disciplined at the expense of my own health, and I really don’t want to fall back into that abuse-taught mindset/way of life.
The second reason that it’s time for me to make a change over here is that I accomplished the original goal that I set out to accomplish! Blogging has officially become a habit for me again and it’s no longer something that I feel afraid to do! My blog has become my safe place. A place where I can talk about all aspects of my healing journey authentically. A place where I am no longer censoring myself with years and years of internalized opinions and harsh condemnations of others. It has become a place where I can show up, be myself, and talk about whatever I happen to be working through, whenever I feel ready to open up about it. And that’s not to say that I’m going to be blogging on heavy subjects as frequently as I have this year so far…I won’t be. But just giving myself the freedom to do so has made all the difference in the world for me 💛
And the third and final reason that I will be making some changes here on the blog is because I want to focus more time on growing my artistic abilities. I have a little passion called adult coloring, and my new goal is to make and sell my own coloring pages. But I know achieving that goal will only be feasible for me if I spend less time writing each week and more time developing both my drawing and inking abilities. And of course that would only be the beginning of the process.
SO yes. I will be making some changes on the blog from here on out, and those changes involve my new posting schedule. I have decided that it is best for my health and my future goals if I change my 4-days-a-month posting to just 1 day a month. And not just to any day of month, but to, you guessed it, the 22nd day of every month. Because of course 22 is the bestest and most beautiful number in the whole world and I honestly don’t know how I didn’t think of this sooner 😁