Hi, I’m Cassia!
I’m a lover of Jesus, my awesome husband Walker, and all things happy, beautiful, good, and true.
I’m an extra-tiny woman with a big heart, and have lived with chronic illness almost my entire life, but especially so these last 5 years.
In 2016 my doctors discovered that the abuse I suffered throughout my whole life is what deteriorated my body to the point of developing the multiple illnesses, injuries, and diseases that nearly ended my life a few years ago. I’m still fighting those illnesses and injuries today and am beginning to understand the detrimental effects that both physical and non-physical abuses can have in a person’s body and life…and how much more complicated trauma becomes when abuse comes from the hands of someone who claims to be doing the work of God.
So I have a lot of healing to do…not just physically, from illnesses and injuries, but also mentally, emotionally, and spiritually. Trauma –especially a lifetime of trauma from the hands of someone I trusted and loved– is hard. So hard. But every day that I fight I find myself just a little bit stronger.
Chronic illness and injuries have caused me to have to largely or entirely give up most of the things that used to pretty much make me who I was. Singing, guitar playing, working, traveling, finishing up my college degree, driving, and everything athletic are things that, for now, I’ve had to completely give up. And due to migraines and a broken jaw I’ve had to nearly give up laughing, smiling, computer usage, writing and talking as well.
From the outside, the absence of laughter, energy, music, and the rest might seem to some that I’m a completely different person. After all, I know that I spent years trying to understand who I still was without all those things, myself. But the truth is that I’m still a smiling, singing, laughing Cassia inside…I have songs in my heart instead of nearly always on my lips, and laughter and joy in my spirit…something that isn’t as easily heard but that is just as real. And instead of always having a smile on my lips that will add injury to my already broken jaw, I express smiles through words, learning art, and just living in the moment enjoying things to their fullest.
Despite everything that I’ve had to give up, I have learned to love the simple, seemingly small capacity of life that God still allows me to enjoy. It is still a beautiful life, even though it’s so hard.
I’m a blogger so I’m sure it goes without saying that I love writing and the potential that words have to be freeing, encouraging, and healing. Due to migraines and brain fog from a few injuries and illnesses, writing is something that I cannot do anywhere near as easily as I once could. It takes much time, energy, and effort to put enough words together to write something suitable to be shared, but I have learned to be content with that, finding joy and freedom in the slow process that writing has become.
I have lots of dreams, despite the number of limitations and odds against me. I think dreaming is a beautiful and motivating part of life, and I will never stop believing that God is able to one day still achieve some of these dreams in me.
My husband Walker is my greatest supporter and my dearest and most best friend. He shows me the love of Christ every single day, believes in me even when I don’t believe in myself, and sacrifices daily to invest not just in my wellbeing but also in my dreams, simply because he believes that I am worth it. I don’t know how I ended up with someone so incredible, and I don’t know where I would be without him.
I love art, scripture, coloring, all things yellow, dolphins, the number 22, hugs, flowers and nature, frozen fruits and veggies, journals, audiobooks, fine-point pens, dark chocolate, science, dresses, stationary, art supplies, treehouses, and watching T.V. shows on Netflix with my husband. ^_^
Welcome to my blog!